Red Light !!!

I just received an anonymous letter through my mail. I’m terrified. I read it again and again. But the same content is horrifying me every time. It said I’m going to die in next 20 minutes. At first I laughed at it. I closed all the windows and the doors. But the same thought is alarming me again and again. And every time I’m reacting to it. 20 minutes is all I have in my life. I switched off the lights and created darkness in my room. Its night outside. And it’s coming in 20 minutes. Every second in this darkness is equal to death. So I switched on the lights. But it’s still darkness everywhere. I felt like drowning in a room full of darkness. Every second is splitting into hours of darkness. And in the dark comes the death. I got alarmed again. The bell started ringing from somewhere and I can hear it from here. I believe it’s from heaven and its calling me. I opened the door and ran outside. It’s still darkness everywhere. I started running through the streets for hours, searching for my life. But the clock has crossed only a few seconds. Suddenly I saw a red light appearing in the woods. And it started spreading everywhere through the atmosphere, when it reached the clouds, it scattered back. That is the only thing visible to my eyes right now. The next moment, I started running towards it. And suddenly another red light appeared in the woods. I got terrified again; I stopped there for a moment and again I started running towards it. For every step I took, a new light started appearing in the woods and it started forming a line between the woods. The sound is getting loud now. My ears are going to explode any moment. I suddenly removed my shirt while running and tied it tight against my ears. Now it’s a lot better now. I checked the watch; I only got a few more seconds to reach that red light, to save my life. I started running forward in complete speed and effort. I knew it inside my mind; I’m going to reach that light somehow. The light started getting closer to me and also the sound. The sound was becoming louder and it’s almost breaking my ears now. But I kept running until I reached that light and I stopped there. I covered my head between my hands, but it’s penetrating through it. Suddenly, I felt something coming from the dark. When I looked towards it, I saw it coming to me just in front of my eyes. The next moment it took me with even a louder voice. It was a snake like object with many wheels fitted, to flow faster than any snake. It had louder voice than any other animals and it looked more petrifying than anything in the dark. In a fraction of a second, it sent me to heaven and all I remember is a red light and that sound.

I saw some bright lights getting through my eyes. I felt like waking up from my glorious past, I wanted to feel the beauty of heaven with my eyes, so I tried opening it. I opened it, but it was again darkness there. I tried again and again, there was nothing, but I succeeded in moving my hands. I touched my eyes. But it was tied together with my shirt. I removed it and the lights started falling into my eyes. It was a great feel and I saw my room, and me just getting up from my bed. I checked the time and it’s already ten now. I’m 90 minutes to my office. I jumped up and checked my alarm. It was still there tired of ringing continuously and the red light from my reminder said, you’ve missed your office once again…

Af-fair Tale

The dusk is appearing. I could see someone pulling out the sun. And the darkness is conquering the world. Once it knocked my mind, I switched on the whole lights, so that the whole world can get some of it.  Tomorrow is February 14th, Valentine’s Day. I felt so happy. A day for lovers, Isn’t it amazing? I’m standing in the balcony thinking about all this and watching the fall of a day.  It took some time, and when I got bored, I went to my room. I had a lot of things to do before midnight. I pulled out the list again from my pocket.
Hair cut- check
New dress- check
Flowers- check
Greeting cards- check
Pedicure- check
Manicure-check
Facial- check
Shaving- 
Ironing-
Bathing-
Packing-
Whoops… still got a lot to cover. Before getting busy with works I went to check the cupboard to see if the gift is still safe and sound. It’s there. The gift is still there. It’s a Valentine’s Day gift for my love. And it’s probably the 100th time I’m checking the cupboard this evening.  I’ve also got an extra bunch of flowers there. Because I read in a book once that flowers spread the essence of love. And I’m all buried in love at present moment running everywhere to make my love story a perfect one. 
There a new problem arise which was not in my schedule. The greeting cards, I bought three best cards available in town. And now I have to choose one from them. That’s like choosing a million dollars from three million dollars. I gave up everything and concentrated on it. I told myself, “you are the superman… you can do it”. After doing all the black magic I knew, I choose the middle one for her. The one with a big house jumping out from nowhere.  I took a pen, now I have to write something, before I ruin it with my award winning handwriting, I decided I’m gonna write just three words. Happy Valentine’s Day! Or I love you! Again a new problem. I cannot leave one of them behind. Both of them can be useful. So I decided, it’s gonna be Happy Valentine’s Day, I love you. Or I love you, happy Valentine’s Day. Again I faced a two side attack. Damn! Ok, “you are the superman, now let’s do it” I took the pen and wrote, “I love you, happy Valentine’s Day.” I did it, this time even my handwriting is looking good. I told myself, “Miracle”. I read it again, I read it again and again and again and again and I jumped up from my chair. It’s I love you, happy Valentine’s Day. There is a slight meaning inside that I’m telling I love you to someone called happy Valentine’s Day. I asked myself. Does that occur? I don’t know, but can’t afford to take a chance. So I tore it apart and back to my old seat. Now, which one? I installed Voodoo this time to choose a card and wrote in it,  Happy Valentine’s Day dear… With love… Christopher Benn! Now that’s why I call myself superman. I did it and placed it safely on my cupboard. I checked my face in the mirror on my way. I spotted some wrinkles below my eyes. How could this happen? I did that facial thing.  But still there are some chances for hope, I took out my fairness cream and put on my face completely. I put it completely on my face to remove all those wrinkles. And I rested on my chair to give it some time to go away.
I closed my eyes; I’m slowly falling into her thoughts again. My lover, as every lover in the world would say, the best lover. Suddenly I realized I’m falling into the lonely world of romance.  Romance, the beautiful R-letter word that brings smile to every faces, and has been making me smile for the past eight years, and still I’m smiling. The next best thing in romance is songs. I’m deeply bonded with the romantic songs and I can live an entire life in every romantic song I hear. I'll sing. I might even dance too. I can smile also. It’s a whole different world. A world of romance filled with joy and pleasure or a world of happiness. And I’m living in it. I'm so happy. 
That reminded me of the songs and I couldn’t keep myself alive without that. I rushed to play some songs. I sung in between. I danced. And I am smiling too with the fairness cream on. After a heck of a dance show, I cleaned up the mess in my room. I put the books and CD's in order. It looks good now. I said to myself.  I packed all my clothes and put them in order inside the cupboard. And I went to wash my face. The wrinkles are not gone yet. But still I’m looking a little fairer. I’m more handsome now.  Now I got to work on my bed. Once I cleaned it, James blunt started singing his revolutionary romantic flick   # “You’re beautiful” #. 
A slow one with guitar strings riding from the front and obviously one of my favourites. I removed my t-shirt and went to balcony. I searched for the sun in the darkness. What I got is a moon and a bunch of stars. I just kept looking at them. I felt they all are twinkling to my songs and for the first time on that day I felt like dancing. With the support of the stars, I started tapping around. Then I saw the moon also smiling. By the end of that song they all vanished into the clouds, leaving me alone waiting for the next song.  The clouds are not alone; they brought thunder and lightning along. And the power went off. But I’m not frightened. I stood there. I told myself. I'll not move until they go. And I closed my eyes. But they gave me more thunder. I stood still. A few minutes later when I opened my eyes they were all gone. I saw stars and the moon. The power came.

The fun time is back for me and I rushed inside to play music. Its 8.30 now and I haven’t had a bite yet. I felt like smoking. The next moment I pulled out a cigarette. I want to have it but something inside me is pulling me back. So I crushed it without thinking.  I knew it is her. She doesn’t like me smoking. It is she inside every corner of my mind. The sweetest thing happened in my life or a simple human being who changed the course of my life. That’s the way I’d describe her.  I cannot wait to wish her on this day. I’ve bought a new pair of dresses too, along with the gifts, dresses with the colours she admired. I smiled.  I don’t have any idea how am I gonna spend this whole night wanting to see her. First thing I’ve got to do next day is to meet her. That’s the only thing in my mind. That made me smile again. I checked the time. It’s moving slower than ever. Maybe it’s because of this special day. All lovers in the world, I wondered what they might be doing now. It’s amazing.
I am so over romantic that I even gave some of those romantic impulses to mosquitoes around there.  I don’t know if they have felt it. But I felt they are dancing around me with their music. And all I could do is to simply close my eyes and listen to it.  Well, today I learned a brand new chapter in love. Counting every tickling from the clock, In search of love, I unhooked the clock from the wall and placed it on my table. And then I took my diary from cupboard and placed it on the table. I knew something is missing. But couldn’t find it!  I pulled out the chair and sat on it. Opened my diary but there is nothing written in it. It is full of her love letters tagged in to their dates. Plus her millions of photos!  The one thing I could keep looking without counting the tickling of the clock. I read some of her letters and again kept staring at her photos. I started realising how much I’m missing her.  I realized, I had to wish her when clock will start banging on midnight. I want to see her now. But it’s not possible. Its 9.30 only!  I decided I still got two and a half hours more to go to get a glance of her. I could surprise her by reaching early and singing her favourite song.  The gifts. All these stuffs together will sweep her away. This is the best part in love. And this part is known as being crazy. I love it.      
Alright so I need a shave first. Then I need to take a bath. Put on the new dress. All this in two and a half hours, Sounds fair to me.Got enough time on the clock. So, I played the next track and tuned the volume into maximum. Stars started twinkling. And I'm dancing again. The moon is resting with his fair smile. But the clouds didn’t seem like enjoying at all. I figured, I need a cold bath. So I made arrangements for that.  Before that I needed a trim on my face.
I pulled out the mirror and placed it on the mirror. I said to myself, no mistakes. I stretched my neck and started from the right side. It moved slowly from right side to my chin and then to left. Slowly-slowly I did it again. I cut the left side a little more. Damn! I said to myself. Ok, I can resolve this. The trimming machine turned to the right side and I slowly cut it a little. Just only a little. I compared both sides and it seemed pretty much ok, but still something is missing. I tried to figure that missing thing for the next few minutes. And I did it again. I cut the left a little more again. I sat back on the chair. It’s not working. I checked my face again in the mirror. Then I decided to shave it off completely. And that shave took all hair on my face and all the roughness I hid inside it. I looked myself on the mirror. I am still sweet. Can’t refer to the word cute though, but when I smiled, I noted that I could put some serious damages with my look. Hmmm… not bad at all.  Alright, I’m again running out of time. So I said bye to myself in the mirror and rushed to bathroom to get cold. I prayed amen before closing the door. I did it. I bathed in cold water in this extreme condition. Yes, I can also be a super man! I jumped out of the bathroom shivering out of cold covering myself with a towel. I checked my face on mirror. I look as fresh as little-little raindrops now. Cold too.
The clock again reminded me that I’m running out of time again. So I started dressing, White shirt & Blue jean.  Everything seems so perfect. But then I saw that black jean. I tried blue first. Blue is good. I thought about sticking with blue. But what if the black is the real blue?  I tried black. But I guess black is black and blue is blue. So I wore blue again.  After putting all make ups and stuffs once again. I took gifts and flowers and checked myself on the mirror. 
Am I looking good? I smiled.  For the first time in my life I felt like I am really looking good, just like the superman, Except that I don’t remember exactly how superman looks like. I got out. Locked my apartment. I’m too much confident about myself now.  I’ll need it somewhere. Just when I started walking power went off. I knew it is the clouds. I can hear them from here.  But it doesn’t matter to me anymore. I started walking. I checked my watch. Still got forty more minutes to reach there.  

I started walking into the darkness. I thought for a second, how many lovers in this world will be now walking through the darkness. I just don’t think so.  Coz I’m that much alone here in this road. I could see clouds are watching me. By then they've covered all stars and the moon. I started walking fast. I took my umbrella out. I couldn’t see anything. There are no vehicles, no humans, no animals, nothing; but I could feel something coming.  Little raindrops are touching me. I saw it coming in the powerful lightning. I figured, It’s gonna rain. It’s gonna rain hard.  I knew it’s gonna be hard to get there without any vehicle.  My new dress, her gift, Flowers. I felt like running. I cannot get wet at any cost.  I don’t have any other choice to make. I started running.  But I took it all wrong I guess. The rain is getting heavier on my each steps and I have to walk through all that mud and rain.  I could feel all that mud sticking on my shoes and jean. 
When i saw myself dipped in mud, I want to scream. Scream hard. I quit. I'll walk. As slower i can. I started walking slowly. The road is full of mud covered with hard stones. My shoes are completely wet now. And from the other side, it’s raining also. Harder than those hard stones. I felt like a blind guy desperately walking through hell for love. Yes, I’m blind in love. That thought made me walk a little faster. 
Taking away all my blindness, I saw a vehicle coming. There is no one there to see my happiness. It's a car. I pointed my hand towards road, asking for a lift. In its light I saw a stream of mud and hard stones I had come through. It’s getting nearer.  I could see those hard raindrops hitting on every single thing on earth. Even me.  But the car didn’t stop. It passed me with even more speed splashing the whole mud on me. I felt like crying. Even the flowers are wet now. For the next couple of minutes I went out of my sense.  Now there is nothing left to get wet on my body. I washed the flowers from rainwater. It’s clean now. I tried to wash my shirt also. But no use.  I looked at myself. All wet. Full of mud. In a stream of hardstones and mud. Nothing more could possibly happen to ruin this great day.  But still I knew I’ve got a chance left. I could make it there. With the heavy rain drops falling from the dark filled sky, like pebbles, I felt like laughing. I laughed. I'm standing in the middle of my worst nightmare.  My umbrella, it helped me so much. Now I don’t need it. Coz I’m more wet than than the umbrella now. 
I took her gift on one hand and flowers on other hand and simply started walking.  I knew I’m dirty. But I should make it there somehow. I can see her smiling face in my mind. So just like a simple romantic song i started walking through the stream. I fell down a lot of times in between. But I kept walking.  Now I have a reason to be happy. This stream of hard stones, the rain, darkness; I'm tougher than all. Coz I’m making it. I’m completely covered in mud. But the rain is helping me by washing it away. I kept walking. And finally after miles of adventure I found I’m getting somewhere. I'm getting close to her. 
Suddenly some light of happiness entered my mind. I'm gonna see her. I styled my hair once again. Checked my dress. Everything is almost alright.  I cannot wait anymore. I started running keeping my heart very close to me.  I am blushing in between and I don’t know why. But somewhere in my mind, I felt like a hero, superman. I am a superman!
I could see that wall from a very long distance while running. It’s getting closer. Even more closer. Now I can touch it. I'm here. I made it. I styled my hair once again. Took off my shoes and emptied water and wore it again. I looked at myself once again and I felt proud. I took the gift and flowers with one hand and tried to jump the wall.  I cannot. Its hard and its darkness also. So, I kept flowers inside my shirt close to my heart. And kept gift on wall and jumped. It isn’t a big one compared to my whole journey. I got through it simply. I started walking. I couldn’t see anything out of darkness. There is no power anywhere. Only pure darkness. I fell down in between hitting big stones down there. I'm okay but. It’s just a stone.
I walked slowly towards her abode. Even in this darkness I felt her. I closed my eyes. I could see her waiting. Slowly I rushed towards her. She is sitting there. So calm and beautiful even in this darkness.  I tried to hide the gift. But she found it before then. I got a glance of her beautiful eyes. There are some lights. Enough lights to describe her smile and my affection towards her. Lights coming out from the nowhere. She started laughing looking at my dress. I couldn’t wait anymore to explain about my journey. I reached in front of her. She smiled. I also smiled. I felt proud about myself. I sat there in front of her.  I took flowers out from my shirt and gave it to her. She started leaning forward to kiss me, to give me the best ever beautiful valentine gift.  But the lights are coming down. I slowly closed my eyes to feel her lips. The darkness started conquering the whole area. It is darkness everywhere. I opened my eyes. I felt no difference.
A lightning appeared suddenly and in its brightness I saw something written there. Annie Louise, Born 6-3-1986, Dead 18-12-2010; 
Ann, The love of my life, My tears in darkness, My dream., My everything. She's resting here in peace. I couldn’t find a drop of tear to gift her in this hard rain.  So i smiled. I gifted the Valentine’s Day gift. I believed she'll love it. I sat there and started singing her favourite songs for her. Darkness is still knocking my mind. But I kept singing until the dawn. 
“I'm singing in the rain
Just singing in the rain
What a glorious feeling'
I'm happy again
I'm laughing at clouds
So dark up above T
he sun's in my heart
And I'm ready for love
Let the stormy clouds chase
Everyone from the place
Come on with the rain
I've a smile on my face
I walk down the lane
With a happy refrain
Just singing', Singing' in the rain...”     


--Christopher Benn